So, a year has come and gone. Another has arrived. Same ol' same ol'.
I have to step back and look to see where I'm standing.
In so-doing, I have noticed something. I noticed that
my life has changed dramatically over the last 365 days.
I lost a few things:
I lost my brother back to drugs.
I lost a job I loved.
I lost a few friends and family.
I lost a "work" family.
I lost a few pounds. (Not that you would notice)
I lost a bunch of personal items that were stolen.
I lost a crippling sense of fear.
I gained a few things:
I gained a new job.
I gained a new friend.
I gained a healthy respect for Estrogen.
I gained a knowledge of the Electrical Business.
I gained the ability to start speaking my mind.
I gained courage to do things I hadn't before.
I gained some time off.
I don't know what this year will have in store for me or whether I will be here tomorrow.
What I do know is that God has His reasons for my losses and gains.
He has allowed me to be in places that make me uncomfortable, to feel his healing touch, to question "why". He has allowed me to laugh and scream and cry. To feel frightened and angry and guilty.
It is here where I learn and stretch and grow. And it is here where I find myself on my knees crying out to a Father who loves me enough to allow me to hurt so that I can come to Him. To depend on Him. To Love Him and let Him love me.
So where do I stand?
I stand on the rocky and unstable ground built from the experiences of the last 365 days.
What is that built on?
The solid foundation of Christ. His Glory. His Righteousness. His Mercy. His Love.
